So. It's down to 10 days until the wedding.
And at this state, my friends have been asking the (more or less) same questions.
1. "How do you feel?"
Nervous as hell. Duh. What do you expect?
But despite wanting to lay down, rolling left and right embracing the nervousness, I still got much to do. MUCH, due to the short period of preparation. You know how you're feeling on that last day of work before a long, fun holiday where you can't concentrate at all? That's pretty much how I feel right now
2. "Do you fight a lot with Ion?"
Yes, I do fight a lot with him. Over the most unimportant things. And unfortunately for us, I was on my PMS last week (and for me the emotional roller coaster lasts for about 8-10 days so imagine being him. And me.) so it got even worse. He tried to be REALLY nice but well, he's a human being too so of course he got tired facing this grumpy woman who gets mad 24 hours a day. I also got tired, being mad takes energy, yes? But women will know we can't help it when it comes to PMS. Plus, my married-friends warned me that it's a common thing to experience these fights. When I was quite fed up with those fights, I googled about this (yes, I google things. This time the keyword is "couple fight before wedding"). And I found some forums and (not scientific) articles that says that it's perfectly normal for this to happen. Some even think to cancel their wedding. It's relieving in some ways. To know that I'm not alone, and to know that our fight didn't get that nasty until we... you know. I don't even want to finish my sentence. But after knowing that it's a common thing, I feel like I should be able to control it. It's hard because I'm quite bad-tempered myself, but I'll try my hardest not to be mad for too long. I think it's important to let him know why I'm upset, but I shouldn't make a fuss over it.
3. "They say you tend to doubt your decision to be married to your partner when the wedding gets closer. Is it real?"
Nope. At least to me. I do find him irritating at times, hence those fights, but never for a second I doubted him. Instead, that gives me a clearer picture of what I'm about to face in my marriage. What he likes and dislikes, what makes him mad or happy, how he deal with problems, how he sees the world. No, I haven't known him that much yet, but I sure know him better. And what I like the most about this is, not only him but I also get to know myself better. What I need to improve, what I'm good at, what I need to do to calm myself down, and so on. No, that doesn't make me an expert of relationships and that sure doesn't stop us from having problem. But problems become more bearable when you know who you're facing it with and what you can do about it.
So. Yeah. 10 days. Holy guacamole.
